Location Deficit?

So even if the work, intelligence, creativity, and incorporation is put forth, is it all just one overlooked painting? Could relocation of position lead to making a form of difference, a divided thought beleives so the other half begs to differ. Present time is a possible factor which leads to the unfortunate drag of waitings. A childhood dream that I never awoke from still haunts me and awakening just seems unavailable until the achievement of this longed begged goal. Observing the young progress throws these efforts into a dusty abyss. Yet an opportunity of rebirth is placed face to face but I am held back by locking obstacles, once again I've become reluctantly trapped in the tedious process of wait. Although wrong in some outlooks but in possesion of an ownership of a correct plan and source of knowledge to pull off this self-assigned assignment. Patience begins to rapidly close-in from being prevented from performing and creating improved beauty. One desire, one desire just to ignite this drenched candle that is never chanced again. The break-off, the satisfaction, the excitement, the unreality made reality. So difficult but the agenda spread out ready to take charge. Cooperation is the most desparate nessecity, the only nusiance left, how to earn that is still unknown....